Embody The Silence

Embody the silence, Expand the chest; 3… 2… 1… and… exxhhaalle… The sharpest edges of pain have turned dull, Breathe in; 3… 2… 1… Exxhhaalle… It’s so hard to write when there’s no pain, Just silence to fill time. Mushy brain, Can’t remember anything! There’s no need, Breathe in; 3… 2… 1… Exxhhaalle… The once…

Contrived to Write!

It seems that this very 1st day of 2018 has contrived to force my fingers into the internal promise I made to write more this year. It’s like that gym membership that you proudly and eagerly purchase for yourself and cannot wait to begin but when the day actually comes you find every excuse to…

Please, Just One More Day

Loving you was all consuming, Feeling like I couldn’t breathe; I forged forward, Despite your nonchalant care! Until I just couldn’t… The image of you sneaking in at night, Waking from deep sleep to wrap my arms around you, Breathing you in! Our fingers interlaced under my pillow, Your warm body molding around mine. I…

I wasn’t ready…

They say time heals all. Who are ‘They”? and how do “They” know? The beautiful walls of paradise are cracking The voices, carried by the wind, get closer. What have you done? What will you do? Handfulls of hair fall The tears won’t stop! I did this!! NO!!! It was actually YOU! I loved you…

Hollow Pain

Dutiful responsibilities squared away. Searching but not looking, Slow death please go away! Pushing to punch, Looking to improve, But the hollowness lingers. Everything is so great! Yet in the darkness, Hollowness creeps and takes hold. Smile turned on, So hard to strive. Can’t cry, Is it not strength? Hollowness you won’t win!

Thank You For Being Mine

This huge mysterious world has me mesmerized. My baby now my size! Stealing and ripping my clothes, Running with my heart on her sleeve. A distant unexpected friendship renewed, Suddenly empowered through a screen of words. The world spins, I’m standing alone but not lonely, Content and managing. They have good souls, Through struggles I…

Stupid Feelings!

This stupid feeling! Why won’t it just leave me alone?! The ball in my throat beckons a cry, But for what? There’s nothing to say, Hanging on words and waiting, Is just not my way. It was great! A dream worth waiting for, But it’s creeping away. Helplessly I just sit and wait. Emotional Intelligence,…

To Her You’re Wonder Woman

Sometimes the world is cruel, You struggle and bleed to breathe. On Your knees; Pleading with your legs to stand. Then an angel forms within you, Her birth changes your life. She cries when you’re far, And fills every crevice with love. Her words bring the joyful tears You never thought you had. Her little…

Distance On Special Days

I cry when I hear daddy songs, Because we had it! It was so good, I absolutely adored you. Now looking back; I am so sad. Would you take it back? That night when my world fell apart? You lay on the floor and I woke with a confused smile… No longer daddy’s little girl….

Just For Today

The pride in my chest about to burst, As fluorescent pink and neon green, Dance in front of me. Center stage with the lights glaring, I have given them what I always wanted. Red lipstick and makeup, Mixed with perspiration. Big hugs as my proud tears fall. So beautiful and so big, I created this!…

I walk Proud

You clipped my wings and I took the road less travelled, because I thought my pain would seize. At times unbearable! I’d fall to my knees, crying for answers, but none came. A little bundle wrapped in pink, was my consolation. Another painful delivery, and second chance. My saviors. The wings grew back, and strength…

My Constant Reminder

You’re a constant stream of consciousness, A reminder that I’m not alone. Fighting time and errands for a hug, a glance, a smile. So confused and yet ok. So angry but breaking. Mother nature, why so cruel? Your games render me a fool! The world wants instant gratification! But you are patient, loving, and steady….